Thursday, September 29, 2005 ++
COOL. it's been a long time, i tell you, since i had such an adventure. Venturing to places i havent been to and worst with out much aid. Walking, an exercise so easy to do yet hard.
Tall grasses and bugs were a norm that night. We were afraid. Afraid of degue mosquitoes. but we carried on walking. We seriously had no idea where we were. At that moment the whole journey felt like life.
Just like life, i have no idea where am i heading or what to expect. If we get to the final destination, it's a bonus. And if we don't, it's a pity. So will all of us reach where we wanted to go?
Well some people do and most dont. Those who made it are those with great determination and dont let other factors affect them. But i'm not one of these people. Kind of sad actually, i'm the one who gets influenced easily. You just have to say something impactful and i get influenced for good.
And there we are in the middle of the highway. Lost, dirty, tired, scared, excited, motivated... ...
yeah and it feels like life once again. i'm 17 stuck in the middle of everything. i'm not a kid neither am i an adult. what should i do? enjoy what all teenages do or is it time to be mature just like an working adult. What am i to do? friends wants me to be more mature. adults want me to enjoy being a kid. hmm? There's soo much drive in me. I am certainly excited to do new things and try out new stuff but why is there always a blockage, a pain, an obstacle. Be it human or an object. It just suck. I just want to do what i want to do. I just want to figure everything out myself. You just have to be there and guide. Not give comments.
Then we headed back to the nearest mrt and asked for directions. Yeah like it helped alot.
Answers are given here and there, by different people
JUST
NEED
TO
PUT
THEM
TOGETHER.
so in this journey of life, people i meet are those giving me hints on where should i head. haha but right now i should say "thanks people, its bringing me nowhere" haha.
when finally we reached East Coast Park, i felt no acheivement. Because its something everyone can do. But when i saw the shooting star the first time in my life, i start believing in god.
To me shooting star is something god sent to show the lost that he has always been there. I know as i believe...
10:51 PM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 ++
The player is stuffing up on me. argh. ok so what's the fanzzzy over blogs nowadays? hmm... is it a must have for every one? ok i have one. so how old are you blog? well old enough.
Hmm, things are nicer and brighter and lovlier now. But gee oh wells, october is arriving soon. then november and then december. then a new year comes. actually i am still trying to adapt this funny life here. Things are so different and i still cannot accept the fact that i have to go back to school during the decembers! NOOOooo decemeber is holiday it is already programmed in my system. what a bitch. isnt things nice and good and steady in the past. why change?
ok maybe change is good. hmm. i have to change my way of thinking. Argh, still it is a bitch. Bytch.
i miss my friends. i miss all my dearest dearest friends. why things cannot be the same? i miss those days when i have fun and those simple days sucking on lollipops skipping to school. i miss those days when we ordered roti prata in the shop nearby and sipping on our milo dinosaurs.
damn, now i'm alone at home studying something which i bet i'm going to fail. argh. shiits alex. ok he's getting scary. argh why cant everyone be nice and lovely. no one is like that. i want to skip to lala land and never come back. gosh. help?! 11:56 PM
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